My Abortion Goes Before the Court of Heaven
August 16, 2017
After I read the book by Praying Medic, “Defeating Your Adversary in the Court of Heaven” I decided to go to the Court of Heaven. It was my first time. I followed the instructions that were outlined in the book.
As I asked for the Court to be convened, I could vaguely see God the Judge in front of me. To my right stood Jesus. To my left in front of me was the accuser. When I asked for the accusation to be heard, I saw several little beings by the accuser. I knew/sensed the accusation was about an abortion I had when I was 17 years old (I’m presently 52).
To give a brief background, I have wholeheartedly repented for this sin. I broke covenants with death and murder. Broke curses, etc. Forgave every person involved. As far as I knew, I dealt with this in a spiritual sense 100%!
I sat there and waited for the Holy Spirit to guide and help me. I thought to myself, I only aborted 1 baby, not all of those. My recollection was about 6 little beings there. And then I sensed/ heard from the Lord, I don’t remember how He communicated to me, but He revealed to me that I had not just killed that baby, I killed the offspring, the other lives that would’ve come through my baby’s life. I wept so hard!!!!!!!!!!! I saw this! I saw them! It was so horrible to realize the gravity of aborting my baby. I cried in deep repentance and asked for forgiveness. I stated my only defense was the blood of Jesus!
Then, the most amazing thing happened. I could feel the mercy of Jesus. Right there in the midst of discovering the gravity of my sin (not one life but many) I was forgiven. It was a profound moment of experiencing the mercy and forgiveness of God. I was declared not guilty and Court ended.
I’ve never heard anyone teach on this in what I call “Freedom” ministry. It was revelation to me. It is imperative for anyone that has had an abortion to not only repent for the life they ended, but also for the offspring that would have come through that life.
Thank You Jesus for Your revelation and amazing grace!!
Thank you for sharing this- I never thought about cutting off my baby’s descendants. I want to go to the court of heaven, but am afraid- I knew it was wrong. I had the abortion because my husband didn’t want the baby, said it would ruin his career. I didn’t want to kill our baby, but was afraid he’d resent it and leave me and the child. As soon as the anesthetic hit me, I knew it was wrong, I cried out to stop, I didn’t want the abortion. They said it was too late, I couldn’t stop it. I couldn’t forgive him or myself, and we ended up divorced, after all. He had his career, but my life from then on was shattered. I kept making bad decisions, punishing myself, even though I’ve repented over and over. I know God forgives me but I don’t know how to forgive myself, and I feel cut off from Him. It’s been almost 50 years, I’m now at the end of my life, and I’m still struggling with this.
Please pray for me.
I am praying for you. God loves you and he will never forsake you ! His word is truth and he calls you to be victorious. You are worthy and loved! I hope you come back to this page and see that I am praying for you!