Breaking the Father’s Heart

Two nights ago, I had a dream about the Father’s heart. In the dream, I wanted to show a friend what His heart was like, so I created a three-dimensional image of the words “Father’s Heart.” I carefully wrapped and boxed it. My friend lived in another country, so I shipped it to him. It was damaged while being shipped. A piece of one of the letters broke off, so he sent it back to me. That was the end of the dream.

I know that God wants to reveal some things to me that are new. Not new in the sense that they’ve never existed before but in the sense that I’ve never been aware of them. Things that have always been true but haven’t been common knowledge—at least not to me. One of the things He wants to reveal is the nature of His heart.

A few years ago, the term the Father’s heart was unfamiliar to me. Matt Evans was the first person I’d heard use the phrase. In the years since I’ve had a deepening desire to become more familiar with my Father’s heart.

I talked with Matt the day I had the dream. He gave me a prophetic word about God narrowing my focus to a specific set of things that I would learn about and share with others. He felt as though my sphere of influence would be smaller during this season, due to the fact that not many people will be interested in the things God would share with me.

The words smaller sphere of influence would strike fear in the heart of most bloggers. Writers are interested in finding more readers, not fewer. But this is precisely what God has been telling me to expect in the coming days.

During the last three years, He’s shared things of interest to many people and my website has gained readers. But in the future, readership may decline due to a change of focus.

In the dream, I tried to reveal God’s heart to a friend by creating a sculpture. But the sculpture was only a graphic depiction of words. The Father’s heart was broken when I tried to reveal it in this way.

There will be many changes to my message and my website in the coming days. I’ll be writing more on subjects that I don’t usually discuss. We’ll learn about the heart of the Father and I hope the way that I describe it doesn’t break His heart. Please pray that He’ll reveal it to me in all of its fullness and that I’ll accurately share it with others.